Mum never complained about what life dished out, she struggled with the torment of CA for most of her precious time of life.
My Mother- Ambika Bharati
When Mum was diagnosed with CA , l was in total disbelief, which quickly turned to anger and then pain. Mum softly said to me, everything will be O.K: let's live each day as it comes.
At hospital visits, when receiving bad news, l tried being strong but remember I often cried and cried, Mum would put her arms around me , and again she would softly tell me everything will be O.K, lets live each day as it comes, cheer up she would say, " I Love You". I strongly kept myself to return her everything what I had to.
Mum was being so strong for me, she didn't want me to hurt, she never once complained about the pain that the CA caused or about the hurt her heart must of been feeling, knowing that she would soon be saying goodbye to all of us.
I admired, loved and will miss my dear Mother's strength.
" I DON'T UNDERSTAND IT'S JUST NOT FAIR"
She was such a beautiful, caring and loving person to those who really, really knew her.
Wasn't it enough that she struggled each day, for the majority of her life, her mind always racing, mentally being haunted.
WHY?....
Why did my dear mother then have to endure the struggle and pain of CA?.....
"I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND IT'S JUST NOT FAIR"
When l close my eyes, l see Mum's loving face, she is now in heaven, free from pain, looking down on us smiling, her golden heart now shining brighter than ever.
I WOULD LIKE TO READ A POEM THAT I FEEL SHE WOULD BE SAYING FROM THE STARS ABOVE.
Hush My love, hush be still
I had to leave you, it was God's will
Hush my love do not cry
For l am standing here, right by.
I have not gone for good you see
I am always right here and join you for tea.
But alas, you cannot see me and all that l give
Hush my sweet love, l am not dead, l still live.
When you feel down or very low
I will pick you up, as l did below
There will be joy and laughter in your heart
When you realize we are never to apart
I am everywhere you go and everything you see
I am always with you.
You will sing and dance once more again
Bright sunshine will fill you, instead of rain
I live! I live! I live ! I tell these
Just the thought you need, to remember me.
In each flower, plant or bird you see
We are all part of this, you and me
So look at all things with gentle love and care
We'll meet again l am just over here.
Remember the good and never times and never the bad
We loved and laughed together and shared the sad
Remember how precious and dear you are to me
Remember I'm right here with you, if only you could see.
I love you and "l'll always be near"
Just whisper and l'll be right there.
"Mum if you’re listening, please know this"- I love you, need you, miss you, l want you back but know that it can't be.
We will meet again, but until then, know that l will never stop loving you.
Your memory will always be close to my heart.
You are now free
Pain will visit you no more.
Rest now
Your loving Son- Ejesh
